This has been a busy month for me and seems to have flown by.  How about for you?

My major accomplishments for the month include writing a new e-course which will be available soon on my website called: Transcending Loss: Eight Ways to Find Wisdom and Feel Fully Alive Again.

I also hired a designer to retool my website, blog and the look of my “brand”.  And I hosted two successful meetings of my free Fully Alive NOW! Inspiration Telecircle, both focused on gratitude.

As I planned for and hosted those TeleCircles and as I wrote postings to this blog on gratitude, I have, indeed, felt very grateful.  I turned 52 this month, am healthy, love my work, have an exceptional husband and a beautiful family.

And....yet....I’ve been aware of feeling slowed, unfocused and even a little blue lately.  What’s that about?

More and more, I’m learning NOT to analyze my moods.  Analysis only causes me to try to pin the blame on some outside source or circumstance.

I know this low mood does tell me that I’ve been attached to some difficult thoughts about three areas of my life: my family, my weight and my business.

It’s funny, though, even just writing that aloud—admitting that I’ve been a little lost in my thinking about my concerns—somehow helps to break the energy of the attachment.  Take the weight issue, for example.

Yeah, yeah....I have been putting energy in quite a few spiteful, hateful, fearful thoughts about my relationship to my weight.  How did I ever let it get out of control AGAIN? What am I going to do about it since the menopausal shifts taking place in my body seem to be confounding any weight loss effort I make?  I hate that my clothes are tight!  I hate what the mirror reflects back at me!

Even as I write those words, I am aware that there is an energy underneath them that wants to bubble up; a focus that is entirely different. It’s gentler, hopeful, curious and, yes, even excited.  Above all, it’s powerful.

I’m not sure what to call that energy.  Maybe it’s “innate health.” Maybe it’s grace.  Maybe it’s a feminine soulfulness.  Personally, I like the name Wisdom.

This wisdom energy, when I tap into it, seems to power a whole new set of thoughts about my weight. My body has been so healthy!  I want to feed it well.  I want to love it back to a feeling of greater litheness, lightness, and graceful movement. I can take my time and enjoy the challenge of slowly freeing myself from this heavier overcoat.  Maybe the challenge of menopause can open the door to a whole new, interesting awareness of the best fuels for my body at midlife.

I love living from the energy of Wisdom.  From this space, I experience hope, solutions, wonder, curiosity and unbounded optimisim.

I look forward in December to embracing the birth of some new beginnings in my life: the freeing of a more slender body, the revamping of my business niche and a relationship with family free of ANY judgment.

How can we use this blog and our inspiration telecircle to put a tender, protective circle around the tiny shoots of our new beginnings?

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